A Day in the Life

I originally posted this on my phone and it put the photos in backwards.  So here is my day, backwards.

Workout.  It was leg day.

I was toast.  Spent and sweaty.

Public transportation home.

My To Do list, work and life.

Sipping on water, it happens all day long.

My desk.  My keyboard is kinda weird, I think I need a new one.

Breakfast.  2 eggs, 2 whites, spinach and bell pepper.  Toast was cooking.

First thing’s first, water and coffee.

I make my bed, every single morning.

Why hello there, it’s 6 am let’s get up.

Favorite

This is my favorite picture of me (and probably one of my favorites of all time) because it epitomizes my childhood perfectly in my eyes.  I always was and always will be “Daddy’s Little Girl,” and I think this picture sums it up more than any other in the world. 

My Lot in Life

This is difficult, because I’m not really quite sure what to share.  I’ve had my fair share of hardships, but I would say most people do.  It would be very fortunate to not have any.  However, I think that my biggest hardship that I have to overcome and still do, is my extremely shy nature and tendencies.  I am beyond shy and timid.  I would say painfully shy.  I generally take quite a while to warm up to people.  I tend to not come off well because of that.  I’m definitely the type that wants you to come to me and get me to talk, and not the other way around.  It creates quite a struggle for me, because I want to be friendly, but I really don’t come off that way.  I have trouble making good friendships because of it.  I don’t think there’s anything wrong with being shy, but it has created a problem for me in my life.  People who aren’t shy, don’t quite understand how you can be so shy.  They want you to come out of your shell.  It just isn’t in my nature.

I’m trying to overcome this by actively saying hi to people and looking them in the eye when we are walking towards each other.  These are huge, monumental strides that I am making, or that I think I’m making.  I’m trying to respond in a generally friendly manner to people.  To have enthusiasm in my voice when responding to them (I also tend to lack emotion in my facial expressions and my voice which doesn’t help).

I know to some this would not come off as very difficult, but for those of us who are incredibly shy, it really, really is.  I may never really overcome it, as it is part of my personality.  However, if I can make any kind of gains in regards to it then I’ll be happy with that.

Things That Make Me Happy

Ten Things that Make Me REALLY Happy

1.  Really delicious coffee.  A little bit strong, and a little bit sweet.  The warmth of a good cup of coffee in the morning, that warms the soul and jump starts your day.  Pure bliss.  Get to sippin’.

2.  This guy:

he makes me happy.

3.  A good read.  (The Catcher in the Rye, To Kill a Mockingbird, and Harry Potter). It doesn’t always have to make me think, it just has to take me away.  Far, far away.  Broomstick isn’t always necessary, but it does help.

4.  A beach side nap, or day of rest.  Sun, waves, and a pair of shades put a smile on this girl’s face.

5.  Good music.  Don’t judge, it generally falls into these categories:  country, classic rock, Lil Jon, funk, or 90’s hip hop.  They all put a smile on my face.  Mostly the first two, the last three are kind of my guilty pleasures that definitely would not normally describe me.  .

6.  Disney anything.  Disneyland, Disney movies, happiest place on earth!

7.  Exercise.  I know, I know, it sounds like a chore but it really does make me happy.  INSERT Elle Woods endorphins quote.

8.  Nature and being outdoors.  I work in an office with no windows and that is torture.  I love being outside.  I love hiking and enjoying fresh air.

9.  Mexican food.  Enough said, right?  But really, I love me some good Mexican food.  Especially if they have spicy salsa and handmade tortilla chips.  I can’t keep my hands out of it.

10.  A clean space.  I never used to be a neat freak, but I really enjoy things being neat and orderly.  I work so much better and feel less stressed over it.  I know my place ain’t as clean as I’d like it right now and I am not a fan, at all.

Public Apology

Here is my public apology.

Some are to certain people while others are in general.

I’m sorry that…

I don’t blog regularly, and that I’m not always that great at responding to comments and commenting back in general. I am really working on being better at it though.

I complain all the time. I should be thankful for the things that I do have and not worry so much about what I don’t have. I have a roof over my head and food in my fridge, I should really be thankful for all that.

I apologize for things that I don’t need to apologize for. It is my way. Somewhere I was told that it was my fault and that I should feel sorry for things. And I know that you don’t get it, but it’s what I do.

I don’t always open up very easily and I come off completely opposite than how I feel. I am not affectionate but I do want you to know how I feel.

I don’t always say what I mean and what I feel. I like people to guess. I’m not trying to play games, its just what I do. I wish I had the guts to tell everyone exactly how I was feeling; especially when it’s really important.

I fall asleep watching most movies or TV. What can I say? I get up between 4:45 and 6:00 AM everyday, staying up past 9 becomes super difficult.

What I Miss Most

There are a few things that I miss in my life.

I miss the ease of childhood, not having to pay bills, budget, make your own meals, and in general be responsible.  I miss the carefree nature that children have.  I miss being able to ride my bike in the street in the summer, play Barbies and dress up, and have sleepovers full of dance parties and seeing who can stay up the latest.

I also miss my grandparents.  I don’t have any that are still living, and although I’m glad none of them are in any pain anymore, I still miss them.  I wish they had all been able to see more of my life.  I was lucky enough to have six.  I miss them all so very much,and I hope they all know how much they were and still are loved.

What do you miss most?

For Sale

Pretty.  Awesome.  Intelligent.  Sarcastic. Compassionate.  Kind.  Silly.  Weird.  Emotional.  Shy.

This was more difficult than I thought, and I don’t think I sold myself too well.