Sometimes nothing can really describe what is going on but a song. “Your Great Name” by Natalie Grant, with my commentary.


Lost are saved, find their way

At the sound of your great name

At some point, we are all lost and need help to find our way. That is where Jesus comes in. He is always there to help us and guide us.

All condemned, feel no shame
At the sound of your great name

We are all sinful and fall short when compared with Jesus, yet, when we come to Him, there is no need for shame and condemnation. He is full of grace and mercy, not wrath and hate.

Every fear, has no place
At the sound of your great name

We do not have to be afraid of anything. There is nothing that can harm us. No matter how awful, how scary, how dark and dreary our days might seem, He is always there. There is nothing to be afraid of.

The enemy, he has to leave
At the sound of your great name

The devil has no place in this world because of Him. He was sent out once, and we all have to send him out and away. he will tempt us always, but he must go.

Jesus, worthy is the lamb
That was slain for us
Son of God and man
You are high and lifted up
And all the world will praise
Your great name

All the weak, find their strength
At the sound of your great name

God is almighty, omnipotent and gives strength to us. The road won’t be easy that we have to go along, but He is always there, even in our weakest moments, to give us strength. To give us courage. To give us perseverance and all that comes with us. We might feel as though we are the weakest in the bunch, but we have the strongest God on our side. No one can take that away from us.

Hungry souls, receive grace
At the sound of your great name

God gives us grace. Each and every day. “…and then he told me, My grace is enough; it’s all you need. My strength comes into its own in your weakness.” 2 Corinthians 12:9

The fatherless they find their place
At the sound of your great name

Some of us are blessed and so lucky to have earthly fathers, but even if we do or do not have an earthly father, we have a Heavenly Father. He is more than we can ever need.

The sick are healed, and the dead are raised
At the sound of your great name

There is no illness that is too strong. There is nothing that is final. Death is not the end. We have an eternal life with Him in heaven. And when the time comes, we will live forever with Him in his heavenly home that He has created for us.

Jesus, worthy is the lamb
That was slain for us
Son of God and man
You are high and lifted up
For all the world will praise
Your great name
Your great name

Redeemer, my healer
Lord Almighty
Sustainer, Defender
You are my king

The name of Jesus
You are high and lifted up
And all the world will praise
Your great name

Here is an excellent video of the song:


one step at a time

I’m really trying to give up Diet Coke. So far, I’ve survived. I started last week (when I ran out of Diet Coke) and I’ve only had two since. I’m really not missing it, as long as I have my morning coffee. I really only craved it while I was out shopping (with my coffee in hand) and I felt like dying because it was so hot and warm from having coffee (and wearing thermals under my jeans). I did, almost by 3 12-packs so I could get the free “I love Diet Coke” shirt, but I realized that would not help my cause. I am definitely remembering how delicious iced tea is, how yummy lemonade is, and how refreshing water is; well I’ve always drank lots of water.

I’m really in the mood for finding some new good music. I’m kind feeling buying the new Sara Bareilles CD or the new Norah Jones, or quite possibly, Adele. I actually have Norah Jones stuck in my head at the moment. All of which sound great to listen to while taking a nice bubble bath, aaahhh, which would feel amazing since it is so cold here tonight. I live in San Diego, it should not be cold like this. It really is not fun at all. My feet are always cold as it is, and now they are just frozen.

I’d really like one of these pairs of shoes, they are Toms, which makes them that much better for the world, all children should have shoes to wear (in fact, I don’t like to really wear shoes, so some of these children can have mine:

READING

“Outside of a dog, a book is man’s best friend. Inside of a dog it’s too dark to read.” ~Groucho Marx


I love reading. I would rather read a book than watch a movie. I have a bookshelf with multitudes of different kinds of books. Some are more childish, some require more intellectual ability, others are for fun; some are romantic, some are hilarious; some are true, while others are fictitious; there are some that are about people, some about places, and many about things. I just love reading. I’ve rarely met a book that I didn’t like. I also don’t think I ever leave the library with just one kind of book. This last time I checked out books by Nora Roberts, “Little Altars Everywhere,” by Rebecca Wells, and the “The Scarlet Letter,” by Nathaniel Hawthorne. Romance, lifestyle, and a classic. I have read every Jodi Picoult book, as well as every Nicholas Sparks; I love “Twilight,” and “Harry Potter.”


“I find television to be very educating. Every time somebody turns on the set, I go in the other room and read a book.” ~Groucho Marx

I’m looking forward to reading new books. I’m definitely looking forward to the new Jodi Picoult book, “Sing You Home.” Her books are just excellent to read. Although I have learned to predict them, but anyway, they are great. I just bought, “In a Heartbeat,” by Sean and Leigh Anne Tuohy, which, I can not wait to read. It should be so inspirational. I thoroughly enjoyed The Blind Side and know that I will love this book. I really can’t wait to read, “Heaven is for Real,” about this little boy who died and went to heaven. That will come at a later date. “Water for Elephants,” which I must read before I see the movie. “Eat, Pray, Love,” which I have read, just on a related note, was so much better as a book rather than a movie. I’ve heard so much about Stieg Larrson’s books, I can not wait to read them. I have read so many books for so many reasons, some I have loved, others I have loathed.


“It is what you read when you don’t have to that determines what you will be when you can’t help it.” ~Oscar Wilde

My favorites are as follows:
The Bride Quartet by Nora Roberts
The Catcher in the Rye – J. D. Salinger
To Kill a Mockingbird – Harper Lee
The Great Gatsby – F. Scott Fitzgerald
The Time Traveler’s Wife – Audrey Niffenegger
White Oleander – Janet Fitch
Frankenstein – Mary Shelley
Little Women – Louisa May Alcott

I just love opening a book. I love starting a new book. I love all that you can learn from a book. Most of all, I love the library and I love bookstores. They are so great. I think I just really love learning, and reading is always learning.

“Books can be dangerous. The best ones should be labeled ‘This could change your life,'” ~Helen Exley


Goldilocks

I’m trying to grow my hair out.
I’ve had long hair and relatively short hair. I’ve been a slave to my straight iron and a wavy, wild woman. I think I prefer my hair long, but I can never seem to get a decent cut so that my hair looks right. My hair used to be so wavy and pretty. I finally got used to it. And now, its straight within in an hour of drying, no matter what. Is it the haircut or my hair? Hormones, aging, food choices and lifestyle choices? My hair was straight until I hit puberty, and that was quite a while ago, but now, am I going through a reverse? I read somewhere on the internet that it is possible, but I don’t like that idea. I want my hair wavy, my hair straight is too much of a hassle and makes me feel boring. I’m not saying that people with straight hair are boring, but I don’t dye my hair, I don’t have a wild haircut, and I’m pretty basic, my hair is my only way to be creative.

Absence Makes the Heart Grow Fonder

This is absolutely true! Chris and I spent so much time apart when we first met. However, I do not know how we managed it. There is no way I could do that now. I understand that you can’t spend every moment with your significant other, but I can’t go so many days without him. Just being around him makes me happy. Even right now, he’s sleeping, and I’m happy because he is here. I have no problem being alone, it is not that I am lonely, but I just like being around him. He makes me happy and always makes me laugh. I love him so much!!! He’s my other half, and I’m his better half, ha ha. 🙂

a second post

mostly because i feel like it. and i’m not tired yet. but here are some more songs of comfort or songs of similar feelings, which can be helpful.

– “Homesick” – MercyMe
– “Believe” – Brooks and Dunn
– “Cry Out to Jesus” – Third Day
– “With Hope” – Steven Curtis Chapman
– “Dancing With the Angels” – Monk and Neagle
– “Goodbye For Now” – Kathy Troccoli

I guess this post was a little lame. I do know that “Goodbye For Now” is the best of them. Or I think it is.

may angels lead you in

This post should have been done yesterday, so one of these days I’ll get two up, or maybe I won’t. That really isn’t important.

Some people that I care about and others that I’ve never met, but as I feel for all people for different reasons, people whom I care about even though I’ve never met them, have been faced with a tremendously difficult week. Their lives will be forever altered, and they might respond to me that of course I can say this because I don’t know what they’re going through. I’d only partially agree, I don’t think any two people experience loss and grief in the same way. The anguish and agony, the pain and hurt, the shock, the anger, and ultimate the void is all the same. There is something missing. Better yet, there is someone missing. But he is in a much better place.

“There is a time for everything, and a season for every activity under heaven; a time to be born and a time to die, a time to plant and a time to uproot, a time to kill and a time to heal, a time to tear down and a time to build, a time to weep and a time to laugh, a time to mourn and a time to dance, a time to scatter stones and a time to gather them, a time to embrace and a time to refrain, a time to search and a time to give up, a time to keep and a time to throw away, a time to tear and a time to mend, a time to be silent and a time to speak, a time to love and a time to hate, a time for war and a time for piece.” Ecclesiastes 3:1-9.

Nobody but God knows when our life is to end. He knows the moment, and it is all part of His great plan. You might ask, if this is part of His plan, why did it happen this way? Well, God gave us free will and that means that sometimes things happen, they are not beyond His control, but they are part of how He wanted his earth to be. As the verse above explains, there is a time for anything and everything. Some ask, well, why now, why at 33? I strongly believe that if God brings you to it, He’ll bring you through it. Could it also be true, that if whatever he is bringing you through is so difficult that you’ll make it through it, but with nothing to gain, that he can swiftly end it? I don’t believe in a vengeful God, although I’m sure he could be. I don’t believe He took Damian from this world to punish those that are left behind. I believe He took him out of his mercy and grace to save Damian from the pain that this world has thrust upon him. Times like these are a test of our faith. He was such a loving man to so many people, remember all the wonderful moments spent with him. Would your life be better to have never had him in it? Think back to all those precious moments spent with him, if they were gone, would that have been better? Yes, there is pain now, and yes, it won’t be easy, but also know that he only wanted people to be happy. He didn’t choose to leave you all behind. And he wouldn’t want you to stop just because he’s gone. I think I posted this on Saturday, but for someone to always be remembered, you have to bring them along.

This song is about a little baby that died, but I think it is oh so fitting for any kind of loss:

Two months is too little
They let him go
They had no sudden healing
To think that providence
Would take a child from his mother
While she prays, is appalling
Who told us we’d be rescued
What has changed and
Why should we be saved from nightmares
Were asking why this happens to us
Who have died to live, it’s unfair
This is what it means to be held
How it feels, when the sacred is torn from your life
And you survive
This is what it is to be loved and to know
That the promise was that when everything fell
We’d be held
This hand is bitterness
We want to taste it and
Let the hatred numb our sorrows
The wise hand opens slowly
To lilies of the valley and tomorrow
This is what it means to be held
How it feels, when the sacred is torn from your life
And you survive
This is what it is to be loved and to know
That the promise was that when everything fell
We’d be held
If hope if born of suffering
If this is only the beginning
Can we not wait, for one hour
Watching for our savior
This is what it means to be held
How it feels, when the sacred is torn from your life
And you survive
This is what it is to be loved and to know
That the promise was that when everything fell
We’d be held

“Held” – Natalie Grant


R. I. P. Damian Silverthorn
1977 – 2011

Another song, because it just clicked in my head that this would be pefect:

there’s no one in town i know
you gave us someplace to go
i never said thank you for that
thought i might get one more chance

what would you think of me now?
so lucky
so strong
so proud
never said thank you for that
now i’ll never have a chance

may angels lead you in
hear you me my friends
on sleepless roads the sleepless go
may angels lead you in

what would you think of me now?
so lucky
so strong
so proud
never said thank you for that
now i’ll never have a chance

may angels lead you in
hear you me my friends
on sleepless roads the sleepless go
may angels lead you in

if you were with me tonight
i’d sing to you just one more time
a song for a heart so big god wouldn’t let it live

may angels lead you in
hear you me my friends
on sleepless roads the sleepless go
may angels lead you in

may angels lead you in
hear you me my friends
on sleepless roads the sleepless go
may angels lead you in

“hear you me” – jimmy eat world