I don’t generally talk about my job here very much, mostly because I probably shouldn’t, and also because it isn’t the most exciting or exactly where I would like to be at this stage in my life. I can tell you I am a Legal Secretary, which, I know sounds all kinds of exciting. I was recently promoted, so I am still in a long and slow learning process. I don’t take to learning slowly, so it has been quite the adjustment for me. However, I’m hopeful that things will pick up and that I will learn to enjoy this position. If it does come that I don’t enjoy it, I do have some small back up plans and other options.
I’d say that you can make a pretty decent assumption on what my job actually entails. I type a lot, send out a lot of mail, and generally assist legal professionals in their day to day tasks. It is not the most glamorous job and I spend a large portion of my day sitting at a desk. I like having a stable job, with good benefits, but sometimes I question whether these positive aspects will ever outweigh the negative aspects. I’m stuck in a room with no windows, which sometimes feels more suffocating than you will ever know. If I don’t get outside on all my breaks and my lunch, I feel trapped. If you’ve never worked in a room with no windows (and the only time you ever see out a window is if someone on the outside has their open) you would not even realize how much the lack of natural light can affect your mood. I also don’t feel as challenged as my constantly working mind would like. I suppose that since I am still in training and learning that it might become more challenging. I’m looking forward to that day.
I don’t see myself doing this job forever. In fact, I don’t think I ever saw myself having this position. The promotion came at a good time and although I can’t say it is what I’ve always wanted, it has the potential to be much better than what I was doing.
I do want to tell you that if I could do anything in the whole world, it would be something where I can make a difference in the lives of others. At this point I’m still thinking that being a teacher would be my best option, but there are some caveats with that as well, that closely relate to my current woes and worries. It’s hard to be a teacher in California and to keep your job when you’re new. Also, the pay is not really much better than what I have now. With that being said, I don’t believe that money buys happiness and that if I was in a field I enjoyed MAYBE I wouldn’t care so much about the pay. I’ve been toying with how to go back and get my teaching credential (that’s all I need to become a teacher) and what would best suit my needs. Right now it just isn’t plausible but hopefully, one day it is.
I hope you all enjoy what you do, and if you don’t enjoy it, I hope that it doesn’t create a nasty atmosphere where you cannot thrive