And Just Like That…

My brain will probably be exploding onto this blog.  Brace yourselves, it could be a bumpy ride. 

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I’m definitely starting to like my shorter hair.  Particularly how it looked on Saturday.  Good thing it only got to go shopping with me.  Better luck on a day I have something to do.  Anyway, so we all take so many selfies I think we’ve become immune to what we actually look like.  I’m not the most confident girl in the world although I do find myself to a pretty and attractive lady.  For as crummy of a day I was having that day, I felt really pretty.  My boyfriend thinks I’m pretty.  And really, that’s al that matter.  My eyes go from green to grey to blue with a brown/hazel ring in the middle.  I think we need to own our appearance.  I have that funky scar on my cheek (I swear it from an acne mark that I got a sunburn on!) and I have another on the other side, where I had stitches.  And its what makes me, me.  I don’t look 27, which I awesome, and I’m trying to learn to be content with myself.  I’m not being cocky or arrogant; I’m working on my confidence. 

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This Old Navy was closing and I got each of these for $1.49.  What a steal.  That brightened my day.  And some jeans for like $4.  I’m a bargain hunter to the core. 

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I bought these pillows and curtains to tie in my whole living room together.  The tray on my table still needs some stuff, but its all a work in progress.  My apartment is really dark.  I know that window gives the perception that there’s a lot of light BUT I also have 2 light on in the photo.  My coworkers joke that I grow mushrooms in my apartment.  It would probably be an ideal place. 

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My sister and her husband moved into my parents’ house (they have 2 dogs) and my sister and her husband have 1.  So that blue bed is their dog’s bed.  Apparently Ricky and Lucie took it over.  Its really not made for 2 dogs.  I’m curious as to which dog was in there first and which one moved on in on the other.  Lucie is the light one; Ricky I the dark one.  My sister says that the 3 dogs rotate sleeping in it. 

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I found this on Pinterest, but didn’t pin it, so I cant link it BUT I thought it was funny.  I laughed very loudly as I read it.  Makes total sense to me. 

Also, I’ve been trying to clean up my eating and really get back in gear.  So far it is feeling good.  I’ve had a few moments, ok, an entire weekend where I wanted to dive face first into a quart of ice cream topped off with candy, but I didn’t and I’m feeling good.  I don’t see any real changes yet (its only been a  week) but I do feel less gross.  That’s really all I can say.  I’ve been tracking my food again just to see where everything falls and my sugar intake has been low, which is what I’m going for.  Giving up candy and ice cream for Lent has really helped.  I’m not the type to buy cookies, so I basically gave up sweets.  I’m hoping to continue this streak and really get it going.  I want a flatter/better looking middle this time around.  My training is balls to the wall and my eating is really like 90% clean, so this could totally happen.  I’m not being obsessive, if I really want something that’s more of a treat, I’m gonna have it and move on.  But, I don’t need dessert or ice cream everyday and I don’t need bowl after bowl of cereal. 

I think that’s a good amount of rambling for the day.  I hope you have an awesome hump day. 

Let’s Confess

Linking up with Leslie

I confess that…

– I listen to music like this on the regular, yet if you knew me you’d think I’m the tamest, calmest white girl you know. 

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– I really miss a certain guy who has been visiting his family.  I haven’t really talked to him since Tuesday and won’t until much later and I’m not a fan.  I am bored and lonely.  Probably why I am able to actually blog. 

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– My mom’s friend (who is in her late 50s) was giving away clothes, and said I could have some things.  Yes I picked this.  Yes, it is a size Large.  A&F, girls should hate you. 

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– I cooked my shrimp for my lunch in the same pan as my eggs for dinner and didn’t wash/rinse it.  Lazy over here. 

– I cut off the sleeves of my shirt that was too big to try and make a cool tank.  And, I pretty much just look like a tool. 

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– I gave up candy and ice cream for Lent.  So, I just ate a lot of berries for dessert.  At least it was post work out. 

– I haven’t ran all week and probably won’t and I’m about 90% ok with that.  My mind and body needed a break. 

Have a great weekend.  Today is the day the guy mentioned above finally comes home, and I’m pretty excited. 

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Willpower

I used to have amazing willpower.  I used to pretend that I didn’t like potato chips or cake (well, I do like flavored potato chips, plain I could pass on and with cake I’m pretty good at forgoing cheap buttercream frosting on white/chocolate boxed/store bought cake.)  I gave up Diet Coke two years ago, well all soda in general except on airplanes (and then its only Ginger Ale or Dr. Pepper because this girl’s fear of flying trumps the anti-soda) and when it is in a mixed alcoholic drink that I can’t avoid.  However, I can normally avoid them.  My poison of choice is not usually a fancy, fruity mixed drink.  Anyway, last May I gave up candy for the whole month.  I survived but I completely started back up and went at it ten fold.  I’ve talked about this before, probably more than anyone wants to hear.  I work my tail off in the gym.  I lift heavy and hard and although it is apparent that I do this, I’m still not a fan of where my eating habits have landed me.  I would say that I had probably been at a 60/40 clean eating lifestyle.  That’s not really good enough.  I feel as if I work too hard in the gym to not see the gains due to my eating habits.  So, I’ve had the best intentions to fix that.  But then I got sick, then it was my birthday and the super bowl and Valentine’s Day and I went on a trip with my parents (who only eat like random food, hello Doritos, avocado, and red vines for dinner???) and then my mom came to visit and now I’m freaking sick again.  Oh and then yesterday (I didn’t go to work to try and sleep off said sickness) my wonderfully clean lunch (chicken, green beans, brown rice) and snacks (cut up veggies and fruit; yogurt) were thrown away in the fridge cleaning day.  That I didn’t know about.  Seriously?  This girl can’t catch a break.  Anyway, rant over. 

I don’t like to cook, I’m pretty good at it, but I hate it.  The preparation, the dishes, trying to decide what goes together, portions, if it will taste good as leftovers, etc.  That’s why this eating clean thing drives me crazy.  I don’t have a microwave at home so creating lots of things once a week isn’t really a good plan for me.  For my lunches, sure, but not for dinner.  And then I end up throwing crap together and eating weird stuff (like tonight’ dinner, eggs + cabbage + spinach + salsa = no good) or I eat cereal.  That is something I need to stop buying.  And I really like this boy (okay, I love this man) who eats cereal, yogurt, pb & j, and nachos on the daily and is fit and thin no question asked.  Granted, yes, he is a man and life handed them testosterone, but sometimes I’d rather just eat what he’s eating. 

The whole point of this? I’m practicing my willpower by giving up candy and ice cream for Lent.  Yep, it will be tough but I’m going to make my cheat/treat whatever you want to call them meals not sweets.  I gotta lay off the sugar.  I just want to feel less like a balloon and more like the attractive girl that I am.  Not to get all gross on you, but I definitely look way better with clothes on than I do off.  I kinda want to change that.  I took some pics in a bathing suit and I’m not happy.  So, we will see how it all goes.  I have no reason for today to not be a good, totally clean eating day.

I’m rambling, but sometimes you just have to share.  Have a great Thursday! 

I’m the kind of girl…

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+ who overanalyzes and overthinks everyday, moment, scenario and situation.

+ who runs and workout because she loves it, but also because she love to eat all the food.

+ who could drink coffee all day long.

+ knows the words to every Backstreet Boys, Garth Brooks, and Spice Girls song.

+ who doesn’t like her schedule to be thrown off or plans to be changed (or worse, not even be made).

+ that wishes yoga pants or jeans and v-neck tees were acceptable attire for every single day (if I actually have to wear pants).

+ doesn’t like to wear pants, shoes, or socks.

+ who cries as my most common mode of emotional expression.

+ that prefers 80’s – early 2000’s rap and funk music to anything else; especially if you want me to get my groove on. 

+ who likes wearing big sunglasses.

+ who loves reading. 

+ that doesn’t like baths; I sweat too much.

+ that could live off pizza, ice cream, and crackers.

+ who makes her bed every.single.morning. no matter what.

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Things I Find Completely Useless and a Waste of Time

I’m glad you’ve stopped by.  Are you in for a real treat.  This is a list of things that I completely, totally find useless and maybe the biggest waste of time in my life.  Let’s get at it, shall we? 

 

Numero Uno. 

Taking a shower.  Like, I get it, we all smell.  Some of us worse than others.  I sweat, like nobody’s business.  Especially while I’m working out.  But let me tell you something.  I don’t shower immediately after.  I have a few reasons.  First, if I’m running on my lunch break it is probably outside and I don’t have a shower at work.  So, I kinda let myself dry while I stretch, eat, and get back to work.  Then, on my next bathroom break (because I drink 9,000,350,403 gallons of water a day) I MAYBE change back into my work clothes.  By then, its so late in the day, who cares.  Honestly, my hair looks better with a little bit of sweat and salt in it.  Who needs sea salt spray?  Not I.  I wash my hair every 2 days, 3 if that day falls on a Friday and I stretch it until Saturday, because I’m a rebel like that.  I’m lazy.  Plus, once I’m dry and don’t smell, what does it matter?  Ask my office mate, maybe she has a differing opinion. 

Numero Dos. 

Cooking and eating.  I’m almost always hungry and can eat like nobody’s business but this whole cooking thing? Seriously, its for the birds.  I’ve been trying to meal prep and it sucks.  Why you ask? I don’t have a microwave, so everything I reheat takes quite some time.  And breakfast?  I’m like ravenous cave man.  So, eggs and oats and you always have to cook them.  I have exactly 1 hour to get ready in the morning, and although cooking eggs and oats doesn’t take that long, I feel like if I didn’t have to eat or cook I’d be set. 

Numero Tres. 

Calories.  Counting them.  Yes, in my head from my years of slightly disordered dieting and eating I can guesstimate the amount of calories in any given food faster than anybody you know, but really think about it.  100 calories of candy vs. 100 calories of fruit.  Clearly you get more fruit AND all it health benefits.  Candy you get nada.  Just eat as clean as you can 70 to 90% of the time and know that if you eat 3 twix bars in one sitting that your life and day are not over.  Move on.  Eat your dinner and get past it. 

Numero Cuatro.

The elliptical.  Seriously?  I could take a nap on it.  Its such an awkward machine.  I get it, its totally easier on your joints, so I suppose if you’re older and/or have limited mobility it might be a good choice.  But, you’re probably better off getting on a bike or swimming instead.  Not to mention, when my IT Band was flaring up this hurt my knee almost as much as running sometimes.  So much for low impact. 

Numero Cinco. 

Socks.  Pants.  Shoes.  Hippie in a past life?  Maybe.  Either way I can tell you I prefer not to have any of those.  I always take my shoes off at work.  And I’m rarely wearing socks.  Oh add coats/jacket to this list.  I’d rather wear 3 sweatshirts. 

Numero Seis. 

Having to have a job.  Perhaps we could all be born with a random amount of money and then you have just that to live off of for the rest of your adult life.  Think about how that could turn out for people? I think it would be kinda awesome.  Or maybe that’ just me. Help me, I’m poor. 

I think this is probably sufficient.  Maybe you feel how I do, maybe you don’t.  I’m just trying to keep it real. 

ten on tuesday.

1.  I finally did it.  I cut off my hair.  I’m having some remorse, but only because I think that the long hair made my look sexy (I am vomiting in my mouth as I type that) and pretty.  I know that my face is the same, but it just seems like that’s how it was. 

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2.  Plyos an agility drills in between your sets at the gym, followed by bike sprints are insane.  It is so true you don’t have to do cardio for hours on end.  I will, however, continue to run and spin because I do what I want. 

3.  My numb toe might be a nerve problem, but now I have numbness in my opposite quad.  Lucky me?  Apparently the downhill start at 27. 

4.  Speaking of 27, I had a pretty awesome time for my birthday.  I went to Disneyland with Brian’s mom (well part of the day by myself) on my actual birthday:

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And then Brian took me to Catalina Island for the weekend:

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Our hotel gave us free wine and cheese. 

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Dive bar for beer and tacos. 

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And hiking, because that’s what we do. 

Love this guy, so much.  He’s the best! 

5.  Trying to get back into this clean eating, but sometimes your body REALLY fights it.  Migraines anyone?

6.  Orange is the New Black may be my favorite TV show right now (I mean, Dexter and Breaking Bad are done, what’s a girl to do?)

7.  I wish I was more stylish.  This is about as good as it gets (and seriously, I’m wearing leggings AND my doctor told me to trash those boots because they are probably what is causing my nerve damage in my foot.  Pain is beauty right?  Except it isn’t pain, its numbness and tingling. 

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8.  I canceled my cable and yet I still have it…  Interesting. 

9.  I sweat a lot.  Like, no joke, its like I took a shower with my clothes on. 

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10.  These are pretty good.  I have 2 other flavors to try (chocolate chip cookie dough is awesome; trying double chocolate chunk and white chocolate raspberry). 

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